Crying...a great way to pray

I was listening to our pastor in church today pray and at one point, his voice started breaking because he was overcome by emotions and he struggled to say what he wanted to say because he started to cry a bit. After the prayer, he said that he wished he could cry and talk at the same time but the two really wouldn't work well together. Well, it got me thinking.....

If you have been following our blog, you know by now that I have lost my father last year and my oldest brother early this year. And my wife has lost both her parents in a span of less than a year. We were hurting and we still are. Through these times, when I start to pray about the situation, I would be overcome by emotions that it made it difficult to pray verbally what I wanted to say. Today, it suddenly dawned on me that I don't really have to say anything because our loving God already knows what I want to say. All I really have to do is just cry because that would be the best way of expressing your pain, hurt and anguish. No amount of words, no matter how articulate you are, can really express what and how you're feeling inside and that's the beauty of it. You don't have to. Just let your guard down, let the tears fall, open up your heart and cry like you've never done before because God understands what you are going through and he will be there for you.

...and yet another loss in the Family

We just got word from my sister-in-law in Singapore that my father-in-law has lost his battle with cancer. Weiwei is on her way to Singapore and she has no idea yet that her dad is gone because she's in transit. She will only find out about it when she arrives in Singapore.

Another sad time for our family. This is our 4th loss in a year. It's harder for Weiwei because she just lost her mom to cancer late last year. So the wound is still fresh. I am praying that she'll be able to cope with this recent event and that time will continue to heal our wounds.

Another Sad Day for my Family

My brother has finally said goodbye to us. He never recovered. I am going to miss him dearly. He was only 47 and he left three beautiful girls and a loving wife behind. He's like a second father to me and my siblings. And my mom has always relied on him for support specially when my father passed away about 9 months ago. My mom is really struggling right now. Losing a husband and a son within 9 months would be tough to deal with no matter who you are. So we are all trying our best to console her while at the same time deal with the loss on the personal level.

Please pray for me and my family especially my mom.

A Tough Week

This week has been tough for me and my wife.

First we found out that my father-in-law has kidney cancer. My mother-in-law just passed away November last year because of cancer and once again we come face to face with this disease.

Second, my oldest brother suffered a major heart attack on Wednesday and he's now in a coma. Last word I got from sister today is that he hasn't responded to any medication and the doctors have already said that very dreadful phrase "they've already done what they can". So we are now just waiting for a miracle that my brother will pull through. My mom is having a difficult time dealing with this recent event because my father just passed away last year. She's tormented because she's having a difficult time convincing herself to visit my brother at the hospital. She said that she can't bear to see my brother in the same situation as my dad but at the same time she wants to see him to say something to him. She's afraid that she might not be able to handle it. I can only imagine what she's going through. Losing my dad and now most likely losing our oldest brother. I have to stop here for now. I'm having difficulty dealing with it as well.

If you happen to come across my blog, please pray for me and my family.